you’ve got to get rid of it…..it’s gotta go…..

i know that i’m a ceramic hoarder….it goes hand in hand with owning a kitchen store which turned into a functional art, gifts and accessories boutique for 27 years….and probably has to do a little with the fact that i’m a.d.d……i just cant get rid of stuff…..and everytime we have a party at the house i tend to throw things in the pantry on top of other things which are balancing on top of other things and then the next time i need something of course i can’t find it but then i go and organize a bit…in the 15 minutes of spare time that i have……and i find all this kool stuff…..i once  read somewhere that the rule of thumb for getting rid of stuff is…..if you look at something and it makes you smile or happy …..keep it….my problem is that if it didnt make me feel good i wouldnt have brought it home in the first place so obviously just about everything i have in my pantry i love…..it either reminds me of a specific time in my life or its just so kool why would i want someone else to have it….i know thats very selfish of me but i have to be selfish with some things…..don’t i……well maybe i can get rid of a few things….i seem to have a few items that i do believe people have brought over for a party and left….so i’ll start there…..

Feeling guilty or just hiding in the bathroom….

so I’m sitting in the bathroom with my friend the robot toilet paper holder who will remain anonymous…..and it’s so nice and quiet I’d love to just stay here for a few hours…..but I’m afraid either my feet will fall asleep or my butt will go numb…..what a day….the store was busy….. I felt bad because I couldn’t spend part of the day with someone I love who is stressed about surgery in a few days and I feel bad because I couldn’t go over to help another person I love when I said I thought I could….but I really couldn’t…. and I’m already feeling bad because of something someone else wants me to go do next year but it just doesn’t feel right……my office is a disaster more then it normally is…..and I’m getting to the point where the brain is running around in circles faster then ever……I really need to stop feeling so guilty about everyone else and start putting the guilt out there for me…..no that never works……and I’m not one to ask for help or purposely make people feel bad or guilty……is there a class for
that….or maybe a weekend retreat to teach those skills……well I’ll take one last deep cleansing breath…..and a few more sips of water so I can head on he to the hubby and 5 dogs who all want my attention at once……just another day in the life of me…..by the way I left the bathroom awhile ago …I put down the phone that is attached to my arm…..and I did flush the toilet and wash my hands……good bye robot toilet paper holder buddy…..good bye quiet….good bye store……do you think all the different characters and robots in the store come to life after I leave and talk about me?

karma

so there was a lot of anger going on it that last little blog…..oye….those of you who know me know that I even though I am a.d.d. I don’t yell, never really get angry…don’t like confrontation…don’t even like to be in an argument with anyone unless you were cassie from the age of I don’t know…birth to 21…just kidding honey you know I love ya…actually I think it was more like 25……but if I do it doesn’t last very long….I am a very patient person….sometimes to a fault I’ve been told….but friday after coming away from the wrong side of the kitchen sink….I was pretty crabby all day…..so I went to meet my family…some of which were in from Chicago….for dinner up at kierland…..yay I could have a drink and hopefully get rid of the crabby me….so I was lucky to find someone pulling out of a parking space right close to the restaurant…..I pulled over a little bit, put my blinker on and waited for them to pull out…..sometimes it takes awhile for people to move their arse….as my mother would say….so the back up lights came on and as they did the car behind me pulls around and stops next to me….so as the car backs out and takes off….the person next to me who I thought was just going around me, pulls in front of me right into the spot…. and of course in the enclosed comfort of my car, which by the way has very large two plates full signs on each side…..I screamed what the f*ck….and then I pulled up behind her and laid on the horn…at that very moment I could see myself jumping out of the car and just wailing on this person….of course I never have and I believe I never would……she rolls down the window of her bmw…nothing against bmw’s….and I said excuse me but I was waiting for that spot….and she says oh I’m so sorry I thought you were just parked there waiting for someone…seriously sister is that all you’ve got…..and then probably from the look on my face she said i’m sorry i’ll pull out….so she pulled out I pulled in went and had my one sangria and dinner…. great conversation and a fun evening as always with the whole family….feeling a bit more relaxed I head back to my car get in…. start it…. up look out my windshield and find that my whole car looks like it had been dive bombed by all the local birds…..so was that karma for me honking at the woman in the car who cut me off…or should I have gone on to look for another parking space and left her bmw to be dive bombed…..which would have been karma for her…..today was such a gorgeous day here in Arizona….low 70’s started out on the motorcycle in the morning with my Harley mcfarley jacket and another light weight jacket that I decorated and ended up just with my tank top and jeans of course….what a great ride….went for breakfast at the hanger at chandler airport with some friends….stopped by san tan flats to quench our thirst ….then rode to chandler Harley….at which  1 of the sales girls came up and asked me if I’m the one that makes the shirts and I said yes and then I told her that I’m making 12 jacket/shirts for arrowhead Harley….then while walking around 2 more employees came up and asked to see my shirt….simple black loose tank with really nice angel wings with a heart on the back and a dia de los muertos figure playing a guitar on the front….better get to making some more stuff to sell rather then wear myself…..actually if I ever get crabby again….all I have to do is sit at my computer like I am now with 4 cute little doggies chewing bones at my feet and asking to get up….actually scratching to get up on my lap for a few hugs and kisses….actually I think they do it to make the other ones jealous so they can steal their bone….smart little diggity’s…..but so cute and loving and sweet and you get relaxed immediately…..yes only 4 doggies at my feet…issue our large dog took advantage of the whole couch to herself…….

mayhem as u.s. black friday hits britain

are you kidding me…..I just can’t take it anymore…..u.s. black Friday hits Britain….really….they don’t even have thanksgiving over there but I guess whatever stores that are over there from here must run the same sales…..so the big chain stores who are taking over the world…..advertise a tv on sale at rock bottom pricing……and people start lining up hours before they open…..only to find out that there is only 1 tv at that price so they end up fighting over them…..really…..and then other stores feel the need to follow suit…..and then the consumer starts to think that every one should be having sales……and no one really makes any money when they have sales….and they really need to sell even more just to stay a float…..and now even more people think they can walk into any store negotiate on prices……and we’ve become such a greedy society in which  the vast majority only looks out for themselves…..the government taxes you on money you make and then on it when you die…..which should be considered double taxation…..and am I in a pissed off mood or what……I do believe I exited from the wrong side of the kitchen sink this morning after doing the pots and pans from thanksgiving……cause I know I woke up on the right side of the bed this morning…..I know this because one of my five dogs…..Rambo whose legs are too short to be able to jump up on the bed always starts jumping up and down right by my face and soon as he thinks I’m awake……so I see his little face bobbing up and down…..sometimes its cute and other times its annoying……and I felt the need to have something very chocolaty so I’m  drinking a red velvet hot chocolate with almond milk which also has soy in the hot chocolate powder which I figured it did it’s in everything……and why does that matter you ask? because I’m allergic to soy and so as I’m drinking I can already feel the tip of my tongue tingling. so I’m really not enjoying the 5 million calories that I sacrificed ….are you still with me…… waiting for the punch line or did I scare you off already…..hey I’m scaring myself……I really should be working on uploading my pics to scotts marketplace….oh look a squirrel……….

carolynne

so I needed my carolynne fix……I met carolynne almost 25 years ago when both my children were diagnosed one as ADHD and the other OCD……not very often are there 2 children in one family with similar diagnoses but I just happened to be lucky that way…..it was down at st joes…..dr Kessler….I remember it well….oh the stories I could tell…..or should I say I will tell….anyways carolynne was the child psychologist that worked with dr Kessler….needless to say we have been seeing her on and off for about 25years…at least……well it’s more like I have been seeing her……..she is everything you’d want in a psychologist…..gentle, soft spoken, nurturing, strong, and gives the best hugs…… and all the other psycho stuff too……if she wasn’t my psychologist I could see us being great friends…..I haven’t seen her in a few years but I was really feeling the need for a carolynne fix…..and a little emotional tune up…….I could hardly wait for one of her hugs…..it’s a safe place….and I always come away much more focused….well as focused as my a.d.d. will let me be…..if everyone had a carolynne the world would be a much better place……I’ll end right here for now…..Terry’s up too at this early hour…..good thing his hearing isn’t the greatest because I just coughed and farted at the same time……not that it would matter to him….but my eyes are getting heavier……

notes to self

hold close the children for they r the innocent victims

and he reached his arms up to The Heavens to ask for forgiveness

created in thine own image…..not as we have become…….greedy and materialistic

things I like to do!!!!
dance
shoot pool
art fairs
crafts
shopping
eat good food
hang out with animals….not the two legged standing upright kind….although sometimes that can be very entertaining
writing…especially my blog…..so why don’t I do it everyday?

a note to the makers of kind bars

so first I looked through your job opportunities because I thought why should I give my idea and let someone else reap the benefits….but as I sit here shoving popcorn in my mouth that I’m not even enjoying…..I realize I can’t do everything…..I have my own retail store, clothing line and blog…..so you have got to get your kind bars into movie theaters……I usually smuggle a few in my purse but today I forgot…..bummer….so here I am popping popcorn…..I would much rather be eating a kind bar…..movie theaters have got to get on the band wagon especially for people with health problems……I love your bars…..they are great tasting…. unlike other bars that are like eating cardboard with artificial sweetener…oops gotta go the movie is starting……